Unjust of me...?

i dont know if it was right to get mad at my friend for trying to do something that i have been wanting to do too. She told me how she tried to kill herself but that then she thought about how wrong it was to go through it, so she didnt... but the thought that she did have it planned out; set and ready to go got me scared and mad. Scared because just the mere thought that i wouldnt see her again hurt... and mad because she was actually going to rip herself away from the people that care about her. Anyways i wrote back my feeling about how i would semi-hate her if she were to be gone... i was really angry and hurt when i wrote it but then the next day as i gave her the note... i thought to myself.. Do i have a right to get mad at her? Afterall i too wanted to do it too. I even tried to take pills but in the end stopped myself from doing something stupid... im not sure if i was fair...and i do know i must've hurt her feelings... i didnt mean too...it's just that im sacred...for her and for me too...