It's just a matter of time...

Of me being brave enough to end it....

It's for the best

I shouldn't be selfish wen it comes to em
It's time for me to let go of something that never existed
It's for the best. 

My blog is too depressing

Reading some of my old posts I realized that the majority of it has hit rock bottom. Their isn't that much of happy writing on here, which only makes me wonder....Will I always be like this?

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When will this end.....

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The voices in my head

Why can't they just shut up
They hurt me and they know it too
They like hurting me

After last night's crying events
Today I just felt so down
Now I have my last late class
And suddenly seeing the intensity of the class is making me want to go back to crying...

This will always be me

I start thinking about ending it, how much I deserve it
But then I see their faces and it just makes me cry so much
I see their pain and though a part of me really thinks I should bury myself under, the other can't help but see the mess I would continue to leave behind...

Let me stay

This is why I didn't want to come back home so soon.
Because I then start crying for not being able to stay.
And I so badly want to just stay.
I don't want to be 6 hrs away.
I want to be home.
Why can't I stay...
Please let me stay...