It's been bugging me lately

I wanted to help contribute to the club, but the amount of hate amongst certain members is making me annoyed. I dont like labeling my sexual orientation especially when I feel like I MUST have an answer. I'm still exploring and find myself liking people for who they are really. It's TRUE that I'm more physically attractive to guys and not women. Yet I dated a girl because I genuinely liked her for who she was/is and then I just found myself being captivated by her. I noticed that the girls I liked so far in my life, was built on friendship. As I grew to know them I found something special that made me like them. While one was a shorter crush, my ex (no matter how short we lasted) was honestly one of a kind girl. I know that sometimes my family's religious views hinder me, and its something I'm not sure I will learn to deal with as of now. But for now I just want to explore who I am without having to explain myself to others. 

I might sound stupid and rude but I just need to rant...its been awhile