Shameful

I hate how all I can think about my future is getting a new place where I can then proceed to hurt myself in So many different ways without having to constantly check over my shoulder....what's wrong with me....

way out

Did you know I carry a razor blade in my backpack? I never told anyone this before because if I did i'm pretty sure they'll worry...they shouldn't...well I hope not anytime soon...
Why do I carry it around me? Because in a very messed up way I like the feeling of knowing i have a way out if it ever gets to bad.....

Screw It

  I've been thinking about it a lot lately. Not because i'm sad and want to hurt myself, but more like I want to just go back to those bad habits. I'm already screwing up in school why not just screw my body once again? I know this is utterly stupid of me but lately I've been so freaking negative that I have started to say "screw it" to everything else.Why not just say "screw it" to this too?