That's why

I couldnt stand the thoughts, the guilt, and the pain. So what did I do? 

Pull myself away 

An ongoing battle

Some days I truly believe that I can change. change for the better and move away from the negativity that wants to destroy my life. and then theirs nights like these where I belive that my life will continue to be chaotic.

Nights like these I start to feel like theirs no hope for me...