thoughts suck...

Im not sure how to feel right now.... i've been roaming around the web trying to find something to pre-occupy my mind with but nothing seems to work...and i been having to much in my head lately...so many thoughts that are probably not so good..i try not to be like this but its so freakin hard! And its not like i can get out and hang out with friends since i have none here...its so damn hard to keep my emotions together, especially now that my sis and me share a room together...everything is just leading for the worst... i cant think positive, im just all negative right now. I wish i could change but its not gonna happen; i never change...and if i do change its just for the worse....now all i can think about is how long will i be able to stay in control? Cuz it feels like in any moment i might just crack