Special Friend

   Tonight was a long one. I just finished Talking to my friend, Anderson. We talked for 3 and a half hours....soo long that we didn't even notice that it was already dark outside. We talked about so many things that could relate to anyone who worries about their future. It was a very nice and interesting conversation. So nice that it made me realize (as we talked) that I found that special friend I always wanted. I had him in front of me all this time but i never noticed until now. I remembered one of my diary entries from when i was a child ( 2/1/06); at that time i said "I hope later on I find  a truly friend that have the same in common & doesn't get annoy. i don't know if theirs a friend like that but i sure hope So. :(".
      Anderson also wants to become a vet but that's not the reason why i see him as a special friend. He's always making sure to keep in touch. He doesn't want to lose our friendship and is always txting me everyday even when i take days to answer him, he continues to literally blow up my cell. He shows me that he's still there for me even if i want it or not. And for some reason he wants to actually talk to me. It warms my heart knowing that he doesn't find me annoying (yet lol?). If i were little again, i would have never imagine that special friend to be a guy especially. This is the first time i ever had a close guy friend. And im sooo happy that he was the one. I feel so close to him, i dont want that to ever change. Im not interested in him like THAT (He's gay[which is not the point, but felt like pointing out]), i feel like i have another brother. One that i can talk about life in general. Although their r some stuff that i still havent told him about myself. Im afraid that if i do, he might see me differently and i dont want that.... but yet for some reason i wanna tell him so many things and i hope he can see how much he means to me. I love that fool a tons. He's part of my family like the rest of my closer friends. I hope we continue to be close as the days go by.

Bonding

I've been bonding a lot with my friend Anderson. He's a really awesome dude. And i dont really have guy friends sooo this is a really new thing for me... anyways i've been bonding with him a lot..and i always seem to talk about him without me even realizing it. It's just that im so happy to have a guy friend and like i said i've been hanging out more with him afterschool and during school than my other friend. So anyways i keep talking about him that my family thinks i like him but the fact is i dont, not like that that is! i just see him as a friend.. although i did try -at one point- to like him like THAT, but i just couldnt because i like(d) someone else at the moment... Back to this... even Stephy (a freshman in my art class) keeps saying his my Boyfriend... i never had a bf..and i dont really see myself going out right now... although sometimes i do wish... but yeah i just hate when my fam keeps saying i like him like that.. they dont understand how much i appreciate our friendship..