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Today I got a sudden txt from my friend saying if I wanted to hangout on Wed. It made me sooooo happy. Like you don't know how much. I don't get many texts like these (none really), so just this one made me almost cry for joy. It makes me feel like I actually matter in this life...

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Spring Break

    This spring break I was able to spend it with my close friends. I didn't think I would do anything this week, but apparently I did. I'm so happy that I did. Earlier in the week I got a surprise visit from Guada and Edgar, they took me along with them to the mall. I was really happy that they remembered about me. I wasn't expecting any visitors and having them show up made my day. Then the next day I went to Guada's house and hanged out there. I made sure to take a lot of pics with her since I realized we don't have many with us together; that was another awesome day. Then today I went  ice skating with my bud--which I hadn't seen for SO LONG. When we saw each other we squeezed the hell out of each other and took a long time to let go. It wasn't until that point that I realized how much I missed him. Then I was lucky enough to see another buddy (Amanda A.) and the 3 of us had super fun. I laughed, yelled, and squealed. I was so loud and so hyper! I felt like me. It felt good. So good that I even started talking to this french guy who kept messing with me  and my buds. When I say messing I mean teasing playfully. And I even talked to other random strangers and made friends with a 12 year old who taught me the basics of skating. Today was definitely a good day. Short but good. Tomorrow is going to be my last day here, and i'm going to spend it with my other close friend, Amanda B. In a way I'm nervous because I don't usually hang out with her by myself, we usually have someone else...and I feel like i'm going to be awkward, but I shouldn't feel like that since I known her for so long! So i'm going to be me and make the best of tomorrow. I'm sure its going to be another great day!
My mission to hang out with the majority of my besties is going to be accomplished. I just wish I could see my other friend, Ritz, before I left.Sadly, I won't be here when she gets back...that's a real bummer. I really wanted to see her...maybe next time.

Merry Christmas

So it's Christmas, I know I sounded kind of 'morbid' on my last post. It wasn't my intention to sound like that, I was just stating my opinion. Anyways, this post isn't going to be a depressing one. Ima try once in awhile to write about good stuff in my life. SO today is Christmas. I woke up late like always (around 12:30) and then I ate (mom made tamales, posole, and hot chocolate) and then my bro told me to open my presents. I got 3, I wasn't expecting nothing really, but bro got everyone a prezi at least. My presents consisted of 2 shirts and a sweater. Now before I continue, I want to say that i'm not a fan of getting clothes as presents. That's because I always get small sizes (even if they say their x-large, its usually an x-large for a skinny person still) and they never fit me. Which then brings me down even more because I know im fat... Anywho! My bros know this and got me stuff that actually fits, which im happy cuz the shirts are really nice! So I got that, and then a few days back I got this awesome art kit from my friend Lupe and then some letters (even though it was personal stuff I still like her writing) from Ritz. I love all my presents. Oh! and bro bought me candy canes too! I love peppermints!!! :3

After opening my presents I watched a movie with my parents, and then I made a wannabe smore. I say wannabe because I didn't have the actual stuff except for the marshmallow. I used a cone and some chocolate de abuelita to make it. I gave the first one to my dad, he made a face. I did too when I tasted mine. It wasn't great lol.

Then I went to give everybody a Christmas hug (with my polar bear scarf/hoodie thingy majigy that Lupe gave me last year on). After that I grabbed froggy and took a pic with him on my webcam (although I wish Dulce was here to take one with us :/ )and then I grabbed my parents and took a pic with them as well (bros didn't want to >.>). I was going to post them on fb but I remembered i'm taking a break from it so ima do it on here (now ya gonna see the chick that always writes depressing stuff -__- lol?)

Now i'm just chilling in my room going to continue to watch some Buffy episodes.

Anywho I had a nice morning,hope everyone has a nice day.Merry Christmas!

Special Friend

   Tonight was a long one. I just finished Talking to my friend, Anderson. We talked for 3 and a half hours....soo long that we didn't even notice that it was already dark outside. We talked about so many things that could relate to anyone who worries about their future. It was a very nice and interesting conversation. So nice that it made me realize (as we talked) that I found that special friend I always wanted. I had him in front of me all this time but i never noticed until now. I remembered one of my diary entries from when i was a child ( 2/1/06); at that time i said "I hope later on I find  a truly friend that have the same in common & doesn't get annoy. i don't know if theirs a friend like that but i sure hope So. :(".
      Anderson also wants to become a vet but that's not the reason why i see him as a special friend. He's always making sure to keep in touch. He doesn't want to lose our friendship and is always txting me everyday even when i take days to answer him, he continues to literally blow up my cell. He shows me that he's still there for me even if i want it or not. And for some reason he wants to actually talk to me. It warms my heart knowing that he doesn't find me annoying (yet lol?). If i were little again, i would have never imagine that special friend to be a guy especially. This is the first time i ever had a close guy friend. And im sooo happy that he was the one. I feel so close to him, i dont want that to ever change. Im not interested in him like THAT (He's gay[which is not the point, but felt like pointing out]), i feel like i have another brother. One that i can talk about life in general. Although their r some stuff that i still havent told him about myself. Im afraid that if i do, he might see me differently and i dont want that.... but yet for some reason i wanna tell him so many things and i hope he can see how much he means to me. I love that fool a tons. He's part of my family like the rest of my closer friends. I hope we continue to be close as the days go by.

10/17/06

Dear Diary,

Today was a great day. My mom had to take care of Yazmine (a friend of mine). We made a killer ginger bread man for halloween and buried our treasure in the neighbors yard next to my garbage. -draws a map-

comment: Come to think of it...those days with her were the best days in my life. I actually enjoyed life. I had fun with it....but soon that happiness left. She faded away just like the rest and i digged up that treasure alone....