someone new

This isn't how I wanted to start this. I actually had something else written before I couldn't manage to make my point across that I decided to delete it and start over. This time instead of getting all wrapped around my own words i'm just going to cut to the chase.

I met a new friend this semester. 

She's 2 years younger than me ( i think)

She's emoish, shy, weird, fidgety, depressing, and cute. 

I think what I like the most about her was her depressing side.

I know that sounds wrong of me but i'm being honest. 

I can't help it, she expressed herself to me and I somewhat expressed myself to her as well. 

In a way I feel like we understand each other, maybe not completely but almost. 

I like her

she's a cool person. 

Why can't I be different?!
Why is it so hard for me to focus and grasp this information?!
Why is it so hard?!
Why must I give up so easily?
Why.....

Words

Theirs this girl in my class that I'm (strangely) attracted to. I say strangely because I don't usually get this feeling. She isn't cute, well maybe she is pretty, but she seems like a tough person. Which is not the reason why I'm attracted to her. I think it's the way she talks and makes her voice be heard. It's something about the way she talks that makes me attracted to her. It's weird...

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dropout

I try not to think about my classes but tonight i just cant help it. I only passed one class and that was Ethnic Studies. I already knew i was going to fail Zool...but i was hoping to pass pre-cal, this is my second time taking it...and once again i failed. All im doing in school is failing every course. Im wasting my parents money a lo menso.They could barely pay their own bills after constanlty giving us money for school.... Sometimes (mostly now a days) ive been wanting to quit school but i cant bring myself in doing it without thinking about everyones disappointment in me. And when i think about that i start thinking about that dreadful-selfish-easy-way-out....

Gave up

My sis told me to study for my Zool final I have tomm...but what she doesn't know is that I stopped going to that class a long time ago. I just gave up on it and wasted my $ for nothing. So now i'm lying that i'm going to take it when in reality i'm just gonna hang out at the library...